20060106
wow, it's friday already! that means the first week of school is almost over! and the weekends are here! hee everyday i look forward for the weekends, just so i can go to church. hmm not that school is bad, realli it isn't all that bad. its realli great with all my frens around and with a great class of 05S76! but of cos yp on saturdays never fail to be more exciting.
i guess i can say im enjoying school. but the thought of sitting for the A levels at the end of the year brings fear and anxiety. i realli want to cast those fears away, and just trust God to bring me through smoothly. and yes, im gonna try. i believe that this year will be a fulfilling one, like last year, or even better. yepp.
anw, today i had 5 periods of chem and 5 periods of break. whoa. today was quite slack. but the sleepy feeling was in the air. somehow we all were feeling very sleepy. hmm come to think of it, its rather weird. we should be energised after the hols, but instead we seem to be more worn out. i bet its not cos of studying. haha. in any case, we were all half dead during lessons. heh.
i realli dun understand why our school field has to be in such a bad condition when its a new school. the field is super uneven and filled with holes here and there. as a result, we are unable to use the field for trainings. and we have to make our way to st.wilfrid's field to train there. its in boon keng, sounds near, but its actually quite far. sighhh. go all the way there, and we have onli 1 hr plus to train cos we booked the field up till 5pm. argh. well, its great to be back in training. or rather back to exercising. i must admit i was lazy to self train my fitness during the hols. so i felt very unfit. and now running again makes me feel nice. haha. gillian, if you read this, i know you'll think im mad. hahaha.
the first week of year 2006. wow. i think my mood swings are acting up again. cos there are some times i dunno whether to feel sad or happy. seriously. its like everything is all in a whirl. i feel happy cos im SUPPOSED to be free of problems. but there are certain things that will cause me to feel depressed, and i try not to allow it to affect my happiness, so i force myself to be happy. so i dunno if im genuinely happy or if im genuinely sad. argh, i dun think im even making sense, but yeah. at least reading some verses from the bible, or singing some songs or hymns will assure me that
God is in control of everything. its comforting to know that. so guess i'll be genunely happy in time to come. =D
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