20051102
im realli beginning to doubt the purpose of my existence. what do ppl take me for? be all goody to me when you are feeling alright and chuck me aside when you have no need for me and dun wish me to be around?!
or am i just the loser that ppl "jokes" about? like hello, i have feelings too you know!
okay, maybe i gotta snap back into reality. that's how life is. that's how things are. the sad reality.
i realised that im always stuck into sticky situations, being in the middle where i shouldn't be. yes i know im not the only one who gets into this kinda nonsense. but i just feel lost, so lost. i dunno where to go from here, i dunno what to do with what's laid before me and worse still, i dunno what to feel from what is happening!
and im afraid. afraid of what lies ahead. so many WHAT IFs. my mind is swirling with questions, questions that cannot be answered. problems and more problems.
WHAT AM I TO DO??!!
CERTAIN people are making things worse. while some are so sweet to comfort me. im thankful for my frens around me, those always cheering me up, lending me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. yes, i must not be unfair to them. i must be STRONG.
WHO CARES ABOUT THAT IDIOT?!
argh. *punches pillow*
HOW DID IT EVER START? IS IT EVER GOING TO END?!
im sorry if this doesn't makes sense to you. i dun care. im just letting out all my frustrations. this is on the world wide web, so i can't reveal much. so there! hmph.
-mask uncovered-
